Fucking hate how I have to worry for my uni fees? Might as well not study anymore. Or not do honors because that'd take extra money. And I'm a fucking local uni for god's sake?!!?! Not even in an overseas uni. Fml. Plans for exchange and braces failed so terribly. Fucking hate my dad.
And then James leaving too :( sighhh.
Wai so many things I have to overcome this year...
Okay I'm totally writing this as it comes to my mind, I don't feel like filtering anything and I suppose i should be more honest/truthful in what I say sometimes. Sometimes, I feel really forgotten by people around me, like as though my existence is barely there. Even by family. Once, I was almost left behind in a club. Friends left but only came back to get me because one of them was supposed to stay at my house for the night. Yup. recently, my brother refused to have dinner with me and shut the door in my face, and you know what?! It was really hurtful. Couldn't he just say no and be nice about it.
I just want to feel as though (and know that for sure that) I'm being prioritized. I don't want to be an option that people think of when their plans fail or have pockets of time to kill.
